Research Article - (2017) Volume 1, Issue 2
Gretchen Hope Miller Heery*
Sirona Family Health Careo, 154 Semmels Hill Road, Lehighton, PA 18235, USA
*Corresponding Author:
Gretchen Hope Miller Heery
Sirona Family Health Careo
154 Semmels Hill Road
Lehighton, PA 18235, USA
Tel: 610 533 8115
E-mail: heerychr@ptd.net/ghh27@drexel.edu
Received date: June 29, 2017; Accepted date: July 20, 2017; Published date: June 28, 2017
Citation: Heery GHM (2017) Addiction Recovery Through Photovoice: Qualitative Study. J Addict Behav Ther Vol.1:7.
Copyright: © 2017 Heery GHM. This is an open-access article distributed under the terms of the Creative Commons Attribution License, which permits unrestricted use, distribution, and reproduction in any medium, provided the original author and source are credited.
Drug addiction is a major public health problem and relapse is common. Addiction relapse rates are higher than some chronic illnesses like diabetes and slightly better than others including hypertension and asthma. The focus of this study was to illuminate the recovery experience from the unique perspective of the recovering addict, to identify what helps one choose recovery and avoid relapse. A flexible platform was created in cyberspace, using photovoice, an empowering participatory action research strategy, often used in marginalized and stigmatized populations to promote change. Six recovering addicts voluntarily captured in photos the story of their recovery process and met online to discuss the significance of the pictures to their recovery experience. Confidentiality was guarded through the use of a webmaster, on a secured encrypted server. Identities of participants were unknown to the researchers and each other. All selected their own pseudonyms.
The recovery process was described as a journey with a series of phases including: initiation into recovery, self destructive behaviors, impaired control, stigma and the need to change dysfunctional thinking. This recovery journey evoked multiple emotions triggered by experiences with a recognized need to change over time. Two themes were identified: 1- Recovery as an emotional journey away from dysfunctional thinking, impaired control and destructive behaviors. 2- The journey toward recovery as initiated by self and supported by others to change over time through reflection, realization and reduction of chaos. Limitations and recommendations for the future are discussed.
Keywords
Photovoice; Recovery; Addiction; Opioids
Introduction
Drug addiction is a major public health problem [1-3]. Almost seven million Americans are abusing a prescription drug, a rise of 13% from 2004 to 2007 [4-6]. From 2001 to 2013, there has been a 2.5 fold increase in the total number of prescription drug deaths and a 3-fold increase in deaths from prescribed opioid pain relievers [3].
Drug addiction treatment strains health and welfare services, contributes to reduced worker productivity, increased rates of domestic violence, criminal behavior, premature death, morbidity and health care costs secondary to adverse reactions and disease [4,6]. Addiction relapse rates are greater than chronic illnesses like diabetes, and slightly better than others including hypertension and asthma [6-8].
Brain effects of addiction
The neurochemical and molecular changes in the brain are characteristic of addiction. These contribute to the chronic relapsing aspects of the illness and compulsive drug seeking behaviors [3,9-11]. Research shows that those who misuse substances have diffuse cortical damage [10,12], primarily in the frontal and temporal lobes [2,12] leading to limitation of executive function and misinterpretation of actions of the addict.
Thereby, the addict presents as generally apathetic, indifferent, emotionally liable and lacking initiative and spontaneity. They also show failure to organize or schedule work activities and lack sensitivity in social situations including caustic remarks and outbursts of anger [10,13] which can contribute to recovery failure. Drug abuse is a disorder of the whole person, not the drug. Addiction is the symptom of the disorder [14].
With response to controlling the brain effects of drugs, in addition to cognitive and behavioral therapies, medications are used to balance the dopamine response with effects on the mu receptors. Newer relapse prevention medications are assisting addicts in maintaining sobriety as they work on the brain’s neuroreceptors.
These are antagonist medications that prevent opioids from activating their receptors. Drugs such as Naltrexone, opioid agonist methadone, levo-alpha acetyl methadol (LAAM) and Suboxone act on the mu receptor within the brain chemistry to reduce the desire to use drugs, as well as other non-addictive medications to reduce anxiety or depression that are also triggers for relapse [15].
Recovery definitions
Recovery has been described as the process of learning to live a comfortable and meaningful life as a sober person [16,17]. It has also been described in stages (Darbo, 2005); a continuous process of lessons learned [18]; or a dynamic fluid state [19-21].
Others suggest, recovery is an opportunity to begin abstinence, change both dysfunctional thinking and behavior, regain health and in general reduce chaos of substance abuse in their lives [10,17,20]. Recovery chances are improved by understanding the person and their relationships, problems and struggles. It is often four to six years before recovering addicts show return to acceptable responsibilities or stable lifestyles [2,10,22].
Recovery initiation
Reasons cited for recovery include motivation to change, positive influences of family, strength of religion and spirituality and help from drug treatment [3,22,23]. Conventional lifestyles, better psychological support, relocating to different area with limited drug availability, developing meaningful relationships, replacing the addiction self-motivators also contributes to long-term success.
Mindfulness, compassion, observing fears and anxiety must happen before recovery begins [22]. Using the Drug Abuse Reporting Program (DARP) and Drug Abuse Treatment Outcome Study (DATOS) information, Joe, Simpson and Broome (1998) found indicators of intrinsic motivation especially readiness for treatment were not only significant predictors of engagement and retention, but were more important than socio-demographic, drug use and other background variables.
Research purpose
We identified a need to learn from the recovering addict what is critically important to them in the recovery process. We believe it is beneficial for the recovering addict to be engaged in the research process while learning and teaching the research team about pattern recognition and problem avoidance in their own recovery, as such findings have the potential to inform supportive interventions for this challenging process.
The focus of the study is to illuminate the recovery experience from the unique perspective of the recovering addict, to identify what helps one choose recovery and avoid relapse utilizing photovoice methodology.
In the nursing studies that included Photovoice and substance abuse, none were identified that addressed only the recovery process [20,24-31].
Photovoice
A gap in the research of understanding recovery through the eyes of the recovering addict remains. Photovoice, a participatory action research strategy, involves providing cameras to those participants who are instructed to capture in photographs the meaning of recovery from their personal experience.
Through group discussion and using a series of questions (Figure 1), individuals select from the multiple pictures the six photos that best describe their recovery experience [32-36].
Figure 1: Schematic of Photovoice and showed questions.
Its philosophical orientation has its origins in critical consciousness, feminism, documentary photography and Paolo Freire’s empowerment education [37-39].
It provides the ability to shift the power of research from the researcher to the participants [20,38,40], providing voice to those marginalized populations [35,36,41], while embodying a thematic framework.
It provides a sense of ownership and empowerment that can stimulate social action [38,39,42], assisting development of personal and social identities of the participants.
Study setting and use of technology
This study was conducted in cyberspace, using a secure website, through a webmaster protecting the identity of participants. Technology use has exploded in the last half of the 20th century. Using web-based communication within a familiar format, such as social media, increases access and flexibility for the participant and researcher to enhance participation [42-44].
Some Addiction Recovery Centers are utilizing social media to keep in contact with patients such as reminding them to attend meetings, etc. and they are finding that they are maintaining sobriety longer [45]. The passage of the Telecommunications Act of 1996 codifies the long-standing commitment by United States policymakers to ensure universal telecommunication service [46].
As of 2012, only 1.7% of Pennsylvanians were without access to a fixed broadband. Online sharing, on a security encrypted website, allowed reflection, fostered creativity, encouraged advice and counseling for both self and others in community and allowed for openness and comfort.
Study overview
With the unique application of utilizing cyberspace as a setting and the marginalized population of those with opioid addiction, there were many ethical consideration and protections build into the study creation. Visual sources raise special questions related to three pivotal areas such as ethics, evidence and academic politics [30,47].
Ethical concerns included privacy, confidentiality/stigma, consent, misrepresentation, safety, access of computer/online, fatigue, vulnerable population, ownership of the actual photographs and the potential for voyeurism [25,35,48]. These are listed in following table (Table 1).
Recruitment of Population |
Approval by the University’s IRB in June 2010. Individuals signed informed consent for participation in the study and recorded in internet files on a secured encrypted server. Participants signed the document from their Suboxone provider approving the ability to be contacted for the study, Postcards were mailed to 80 potential Suboxone-user patients with information of how to enroll in the study. Instructions of how to log-on, obtain and change his/her password and use their camera phones to take six photographs which best described their recovery process. |
Participation of Vulnerable Population |
Others obtained by snowball sampling. Total of eight people contacted the researcher to join the study, one by phone who then declined to participate. seven through the webpage, one of which did not participate. Screening through the demographic questionnaire after login and acceptance of informed consent. Inclusion Criteria: currently in recovery from drug addiction, 20 years of age or older, willing to use camera to describe recovery, have access to secure computer or camera phone. Exclusion Criteria: exhibiting drug use, intoxication, psychiatric or cognitive instability/ impairment or severe mental illness per DSM-IV TR (2000). |
Consent | Data were protected. per Institutional Review Board (IRB) guidelines and core principles of the Belmont Report. maintaining files on a security encrypted website. computer protected passwords. obtaining consent to be photographed. informing participants that participation is voluntary. free to stop participating at any time without repercussions. When uploading the webpage from a security encrypted webpage, the participant requested access. Videos on the webpage described the study and reviewed the webpage including ethics, camera use, process of the study, and consent. |
Confidentiality | The webmaster emails password and log-in. Participant is advised to change password as an acceptance of the informed consent. Informed consent can be read by the participant as well as an audio file. Each participant signed an ethical agreement and confidentiality agreement. Rigorous procedures, including use of a web master as third party, were incorporated. Individual participant’s pseudonyms throughout completion of the study to shield identities in cyberspace. |
Ownership of Photographs/Privacy | Once logged in, each participant is given his/her own blog thread to choose six photographs describing what recovery is to them. Each participant owns their photographs. With each photograph the participant described the photograph using SHOWED questions. This level of blogging is only visible to the participant and the researcher. The researcher evaluated the photographs for common themes and divided into two groups based on themes combining into 18 photographs per group. Only visible to researcher and the particular group. The photographs are mixed and numbered. The participants are advised to discuss through blogging about the photographs and their meaning as pertained to recovery. Over the next 10 months, each group narrows down the photographs to a group consensus of six photographs that represented their experiences with the recovery process. The two groups are reunited into a single blog group with a total of twelve photographs which are re-numbered and mixed. This blog can be seen by all participants and the researcher. Further discussion continued as they choose the final six photographs that best illuminate recovery to the group. Themes are derived from comments. |
Safety/Stigma/Potential for Voyeurism/Fatigue | The online environment provides the opportunity for flexibility of the participants to work at different times to gather the same information and comment in their words at their convenience. Minimize participant risk: Use of a secured server. Giving the individual control over the data (s)he creates and shares about their perceived stigma and frustration related to substance abuse issues. |
Table 1: Ethical considerations & protections.
Population demographics
Demographic data was collected. Half chose recovery because it was court mandated and the rest because of others (new baby, girlfriend, student in nursing school, sponsor) (Figure 2). Relationship problems and high cost of use where the most precipitating events but arrest or legal trouble, loss of job, desire to improve life, spiritual rebirth and fear due to death related to drugs were also factors.
Figure 2: Population demographics.
Data analysis
Data were collected in various forms including interviews, documents, and reflection journaling guided by preprocessing questions via blogging, and field notes, while building coherent justification for the themes, through the presentation of the participant’s voices under each stage and providing detailed descriptions obtained through the preprocessing questions and photographs chosen. Notes were taken throughout the process in all stages.
Data were analyzed by two researchers over four months, following independent coding of 95 blog post through reflection, judging relevance and meaning to develop themes that depict the experience and noted observations through 100 hours of review individually and eight hours jointly until consensus was reached. Categories were created based on selected photographs of the participants, and organized based on similar types of photographs. Comments were referred back to the participants for clarification (member checking), similarities and differences were recorded and evaluated. Because a web based blog format was used and time stamped within the security encrypted website, members verified their own documentation and characterization. The dominant themes was recurrent throughout three discussion boards and explained in the participant’s words below alongside the six photographs selected by participants as reflecting key aspects of their recovery journey.Validation strategies, including triangulation, thick rich description, peer debriefing and researcher reflexivity, helped achieve dependability, authenticity and credibility for this study. These values determine trustworthiness. Authenticity was maintained by the participants documenting their chosen words and expressions and helped determine the accuracy of findings.
In following the methods of Photovoice, the participants took six photographs that described recovery best to them and answered the question, “Tell me the story of what you’ve gone through, from being an active drug user to being where you are in this recovery process.” From this process, 36 photographs were created and further described by the photograph’s owner through SHOWED questions (Figures 3 and 4).
Figure 3: Group photographs (36 photographs divided into 2 groups).
Figure 4: Photographs of choice.
Evaluation by the researcher combined the six participants into two groups based on similarity of their photographs. Taxidriver 3 seemed to be searching for peace, displaying and discussing ideas of washing away or coming clean.
He expressed being a disappointment, missing out on family and relationships and breaking promises. He stated each day he had more ups then downs, and felt fortunate for a future but embarrassed by his past. Basil described personal growth, found peace, higher power and rebuilding. He expressed hopefulness with color and finding peace with disappointments.
Basil, the longest participant in recovery, expressed helping others is important to recovery. He is comfortable with himself and less egocentric. CAH is more hopeful describing facing failure, peace, never ending line of addiction, disappointment (loss and loneliness), love lost and a greater plan.
CAH talked about being scared, happy, and caving to peer pressure, as well as shame, emptiness and needing to face reality. He stated he missed life just to get high. He acknowledged a higher power, stating “I’m not sure if they find God or if God finds them, but God has something to do with it.”
This group described loss but moving forward, disappointment but finding peace and not allowing the addiction to control them and become their destiny.Dman noted shame, choices made, outcomes, lack of success in work, hitting rock bottom, family and pills telling his story and the reality that addiction is a constant.
He described his friends and his motivation, his girlfriend and daughter. He described sobriety was the hardest thing he had to do but worth the future. Heatherg11 noted feelings of out of control, pills ruling her life, and changing appearance indicating body image issues.
She stated the cemetery and shame were the two photographs affected her the most. Ckunkle21, in recovery only three years, noted feeling down and out, feeling like garbage (low self esteem), stigma of addiction, fear of death and highs and lows of life. He stated the cemetery summed up recovery and closeness to death and his life is a roller coaster of ups and downs.
Between group comparison: The stories of the photographs were also interestingly similar. Group 1 discussed their experiences with addiction instead of allowing their addiction to control them or become their destiny. They describe a peace and a future.
Group 2 focused on shame, disappointment and stigma without an expression of coming to terms with their addiction, being in control or at peace (Figure 5).
Figure 5: Child painting.
Group 2 expressed concern about how others perceived them (stigma) as opposed to how group 1 viewed the self. Group 2 are not controlling their addiction, it is still fresh. Group 2 have not come to terms with their addiction as they allow the addiction to define their lives (Figure 6).
Figure 6: Photograph of toilet.
The only female in the group noted body image concerns (Figure 7). Shame is part of recovery, hopefulness and ability to make change makes a difference. There was an awareness that recovery was still a struggle requiring a daily choices. All participants mentioned some aspect of higher power, family (relationship) changes, clean slates, ups and downs, emptiness, regret, shame, acceptance and appreciation.
Figure 7: Photograph of scale.
There were two different perspectives related to losing people to drugs in relation to their recovery. Taxidriver3 described a best friend who died from bad coke and contemplated that it could have been him yet still did not cause him to become sober. It was not until he found his wife and new daughters that he had a new realization of life. He still had an egocentric outlook and in denial that it could have happened to him. Where as, Heatherg11 had a retrospective perspective viewing life as a fight worth fighting and glad she did not die.
Length of their recovery time: On further review and comparison of their “stories” group 1 had been in recovery greater than 10 years and group 2 less than 5 years. The researcher anticipated that the differences in these choices of photographs was related to the length of their recovery time and expressed their perception to recovery.
Research description
As per the photovoice method, based on further discussion via online discussion, each group had to narrow down the 18 photographs in each group had to choose 6 photographs that best elicit the themes that describe what recovery is to them. Each of the final 6 photographs were then grouped into a combined or reunited group, resulting in the photographs noted in Figure 8: Final 12 Photographs (6 photographs from each group, chosen by participants) Recovery is a journey recognizing the addictive nature and need for change.
Figure 8: Discussion was then organized into common themes and definition of recovery.
Basil “intended to express the growth of a man who stays steadfast in recovery.” “This started with me working on myself then to working on others.” Revealed in blogged discussions and captured in photographs is a perspective of recovery as a process or journey, with this in mind, two themes have developed within this study. Two categories were also identified in the development of these themes: Addictive Nature and Change.
First, recovery is an emotional journey away from dysfunctional thinking, impaired control and destructive behavior. Second, the journey is one of discovery and included individual change, required a process of reflection on past events and relationships, included relapses and served as an important reminder of where they had been and the need to avoid complacency in how far they had journeyed thus far.
The category of Addictive Nature was developed from their stories of what brought them to recovery and include: initiation into recovery, self destructive behaviors, impaired control, stigma, and dysfunctional thinking. Change was identified through the description of the photographs that were chosen and categorized into Emotion, Realization and Involvement. Six photographs were chosen by the group to represent this journey and are described next (Table 2).
Themes | Subcategories | Basil | CAH | Taxidriver3 | Heather11 | Ckunkle21 | Dman |
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Category | Group | 1 | 1 | 1 | 2 | 2 | 2 |
Recovery time | Longest | Shortest | |||||
Journey | Process | Plan for future | Getting to the plate, striking out, up to her to swing | Turning point | Path | ||
Growth of a man | Process | Bridge old to new | Hardest thing I’ve ever done | ||||
Tree sprouting from same foundation | Footprints in sand | Don’t want to go back down that road | Journey | ||||
Timeliness | Journey | Recover different stages the same | |||||
Playing with marbles | Systemic change | ||||||
Rebirth | |||||||
Hardest thing to do | |||||||
Addictive Nature | |||||||
Initiation in Recovery | Alone | Didn’t feel connected | Discovered opioids | Tough upbringing | Sick everyday | Closed myself off | |
Going back | Make me feel good | Always obstacles | Prescription pain killers | Bad time | |||
Constant challenge | Friend died of overdose | Ups & Down days | Loss of family | ||||
Alone | Bad supply | “I was great” | |||||
Hard | So bad | Chasing the high | |||||
Kicking me out | Alone | ||||||
Destructive Behavior | No compass | Didn’t seem to care | High | Legal trouble | Committing crimes | High in life | |
Runaway | Fighting with parents | Lost respect of family | Taken away | Arrested | Walking away | ||
Mundane | Nothing to show for it | Jail | In & out jail | Violating parole | Struggles | ||
Aggressive | Something bad | Tough time | Thinking was all clouded | Good & Bad days | Death | ||
Struck | Bad choices | Never really felt like I was good at anything | Bad decisions | Roller coaster | lonliness | ||
Skeletons in closet | Always reacting | Bad news | Bad path | Up & down | |||
Loneliness | Hurting other people | Everything like a joke | Solitude | Running | |||
Up & down | Telling a fib | Physical effects of body | Throwing everything down | ||||
Death | Lifestyle of lies | Skeleton of self | Flushed away | ||||
Wash away | Mistrust | Deteriorate | Garbage | ||||
Failure | Roller coaster | Serious health problems | Where I should be | ||||
Stealing | Ups & Down | ||||||
Lying | |||||||
Impaired Control | Crutch | Things to snort | Dependent | Highs & lows | Downhill spiral | ROCKY | |
Not able to cope | Couldn’t understand | Life in shambles | Bumps on track | Rock bottom | “I was great” | ||
Bend with needs | Bad times | Destroying others | Put self at risk | Cloudy with tough situations | Thrown off the team | ||
End of road | Trouble | Chase the high | Daughter taken away | Struggle | Not enough | ||
Relapse | Caved to peer pressure | Getting worse | Out of control | Unexpected things | Pills don’t really work | ||
Missing life | Do together | Passion replaced by drug | Complacency | Tolerance | |||
Next rush | One became three | Multiple relapse | Terrible cycle | Ups & downs | |||
Chase | Broken promise | Looking for bathrrom for pills | Roller coaster | Out of control | |||
Falling | Never long enough | Relapse | Rock bottom | ||||
Roller coaster | Relapse | Roller coaster | |||||
Relapse | Relapse | ||||||
Addiction took everything | |||||||
Stigma | Minority | Outcasts | Terrible | Not want anything to do with me | Fit in | My past has bad stuff in it | |
Racist | Didn’t judge | Average | Ashamed | Socially accepted | Shame | ||
Stigma | Bad one | Druggie vs disappointment | Alone | ||||
Judgement of others | Prejudice | Peer pressure | |||||
Alone | Cancer vs sickness | ||||||
Peer pressure | |||||||
Wanted to fit in | |||||||
Dysfunctional Thinking | Young | Common ground | Never appreciated | Cover up all feelings | Lying & cheating | Drugs are not the problem, I am the problem | |
Immature | Future not worth anything | Nothing in my life | Facing all situations | Lost all interest | |||
Depression | Anytime life got hard | Killing time | Passing away | Drained dry with no meaning | |||
Emotionally difficult experience | Never seems to have enough | Couldn’t do anything right | Miss it | Day in & day out | |||
Roadblocks | Trouble finding | Sank deeper | Used to be | Lose all passion | |||
Selfish remain blind | Dark places | Broken promises | Different life | Death | |||
Being false | Selfish | Washing away | Life for granted | ||||
Stay away | Lost passion | ||||||
Out of the grave | |||||||
World keeps turning | |||||||
Surviving not living | |||||||
Emotions frozen | |||||||
Change | Emotions | ||||||
Positive | Give meaning to life | Happy | Truth | Happiness | Trust | Happy ending | |
Hope | Happy | Build trust | Strength | Started to open | Stay strong & positive | Pride | |
Starting over | Laugh | Peace | Pride | Confident | Open minded | Strength | |
Acceptance | Trust | Calmness | Acceptance | Strength | Teachable | Hope | |
Optimism | Truth | At ease | Peace | Change | Growth | Change | |
Happiness | Honest | Comfort in abilities | Supportive | Small steps | Passion | Accepting | |
Peace | Honor | Commitment | Fighting my past | Teachable | Relax | Grateful | |
Responsibility | Strength | Fix | Some easy & clear days | Appreciate | |||
Commitment | Hope | Appreciate | Thankful | ||||
Take stand | Appreciate | Love self | Lucky person | ||||
Self dignity | Love | Connected | |||||
Proud | Promise | Passion | |||||
Strength | Good person | Clear mind | |||||
Strong individual | Learn from past | Potential | |||||
Share/flexible | Mistakes cleansed | ||||||
Hope | Thankful | ||||||
Self actualized | |||||||
Leap of faith | |||||||
Love & Compassion | |||||||
Enjoy life & love | |||||||
Peace | |||||||
Embrace | |||||||
Sound mind | |||||||
Forgiveness | |||||||
Success | |||||||
Humility | |||||||
Negative | Emotional | Emotional | Disappointment | Emotions | Emotions | Let myself feel | |
Ups & Downs | Taxing mental, physically & spirituality | Feelings | Empty | Hurt | Fear | Hurting | |
Turmoil | Hurt | Fear | Loss | Scary | Scary | Fear | |
Fear | Fear | Scary | Afraid | Shame | Disappointment | ||
Shame | Disappointments | Mad | Afraid of change | Ashamed | Depression | ||
Emptiness | Powerlessness | Angry | Fear | Empty | Sadness | ||
Loneliness | Overwhelming | Shame | Ashamed | Loss | Angry (very angry) | ||
Meaninglessness | Empty | Angry | All the effort | Ashamed | |||
Unworthiness | Anxious | Emptiness | Unworthy | Empty | |||
Powerlessness | Still hate me | Hopeless | Fear of dying | Bargain for survival | |||
Loss | Hard | Loss | No meaning | Anxiety | |||
Disappointment | Dishonesty | Sorry | Unworthy | Loss | |||
Lost future | Confused | Risk | |||||
Mistakes | Fight | ||||||
Tired | |||||||
Worry | |||||||
Realizations | |||||||
Recognizing past mistakes | Trying to change | Realized | Wish I would have appreciated relationship | Dead | Wasn’t worth throwing life away | Sent away | |
Reflection | Right thing | Life slowly coming back | Never get back years | Started to open | Work on recovery | Progress | |
Moving forward | Compass | Challenge | Dependable | Think clearly | Fresh day | Missed daughters life | |
Second chances | Growth | Another chance | Second chance | Fighting for life | Peace of mind | Feel like he can do it | |
Stigma | Respectfully & care yourself | Toughest part | Make good choices | Rewards | Stop focusing on negatives | Completely stopped | |
Finality | Comfortable in own skin | Face own reality | Fail before success | Valuable lessons | Face & handle them | Don’t want to lose it again | |
Outcomes | Allow mistakes | Only person can make it better | Washing away | Stand ground | Continue to blossom | Landed on my feet | |
Work out fears | Envision future | Recover differently | Fight for what you believe | Comes in waves | Fought like crazy | ||
Courage to change | Saw things in a different light | Member of society | Make progress | Hardest thing | |||
Accept faults | Change | Place could have ended up | Keeping things simple | I’ve ever done | |||
Compassionate care | Clean | Live it to the fullest | Getting involved | Recognizing mistakes | |||
Find something good | Enjoy time | Hold onto important things | Moved away | Death | |||
Learning difficult lessons | Better path | Good decisions | Turning in point | Washing away | |||
Lesser carbon footprint | Brightness behind the darkness | Thinking through | Cemetery | ||||
Keep simple | Natural beauty | Exercise | |||||
Less chaotic | Struggle | Starting over | |||||
Uncomplicated | Cemetery | Worth fighting | |||||
World of color behind the darkness | Take time | ||||||
Rebuild heal | Growth | ||||||
Involvement | |||||||
Higher Power | Relate | Don’t want to be alone | Family | Moved away | Sponsor | One person in particular | |
Others | Recovery nurses meeting | Special person | Fuel with things that love & cherish | Asked for help | Help of resources or others people | Think about her | |
Self | Giving of love to others | Stuck with me | Helping people out | Advise | Plugged into the network | Love of others | |
Faith | Witness | Stay true | Keep his memory alive | Influenced by others | Reach out | Family | |
Support | Help | Reaching out | Miss him | Never take life or family for granted | Driving force | ||
Loving others | Get along with others | Love of my life | Support | Support of others | Motivation | ||
Loving wife & family | Can’t imagine life without her | Family, friends, community, God | |||||
True love springs from honestly | Faith | ||||||
Belief in God | Greater plan | ||||||
Importance of love | God | ||||||
Extend to others | Journey needs to be with God, like the footprints in the sand | ||||||
Empowered to others | |||||||
Connections | |||||||
More then human beings | |||||||
Self worth | |||||||
Love ourselves | |||||||
First take care of ourselves | |||||||
Overall | All | Group 1 | Group 2 | ||||
Higher power | Peace | Struggle | |||||
Family/ relationship changes | Experience with addiction | Shame | |||||
Clean slates | Future | Disappointment | |||||
Ups & Downs | Self view | Stigma | |||||
Emptiness | Out of control | ||||||
Regret | Concerned how perceived by others | ||||||
Shame | Allow addiction to define them | ||||||
Acceptance | |||||||
Appreciation | |||||||
Hope | |||||||
Repair mistakes |
Table 2: Themes extracted.
Category: addictive nature
Initiation into recovery: Basil stated, “When I finally started my recovery process and having a compass of who I am and what I want to be, it became clear to me that this was the missing place that helped me.” “The only thing that would give meaning to my life would be the giving of love to others.” These comments indicate direction and purpose for recovery. Heatherg11 states, “You get many times at the plate. I may have struck out a few times, but I am still in the game. It is up to me if I want to swing or not.” Ckunkle21 states “Everyone recovers differently, but I think the stages are the same.” CAH describes, “The choices I make, make me.” Heatherg11, Ckunkle21 and CAH’s comments elicit ideas of repeat intentions and purposeful direction to change. CAH also states, “Recovery is one of the hardest things I have ever had to go through.” This was also expressed by Dman, Heatherg11, Ckunkle21 and Taxidriver3. CAH states “I can make a plan for my future. Instead of always reacting to the mess I have made for my life, I can envision my future the way I want it to turn out. I need to figure out what makes me happy.” Heatherg11 states, “It’s up to me and only me to do the right thing.” A description of the difficulties of recovery and accepting change is developed from these comments, creating an understanding of the need to change but the conflict involved with change.
Self destructive behaviors: Basil describes a “very aggressive and emotionally difficult experience” and issues with racism and inability coping. CAH, Heatherg11, Taxidriver3 and Ckunkle21 note feelings of being an outcast and not accepted, constant challenges, parental strain and loneliness. Ckunkle21, Dman and Heatherg11 also describe issues with criminal activity, lying, cheating and downhill spirals. These are common issues in recovery as evidenced in previous research making recovery difficult.
These behaviors and emotions are constant fall backs with failure. CAH states “I don’t plan on hurting other people, especially someone I love so much. It just happens. When I get the selfish feeling to do something I know is bad, I try so hard to resist.” Chunkle21, Heatherg11, Taxidriver3, and Dman describe similar feelings. Taxidriver3 describes a lifestyle of lies. These comments indicate the non-purposeful actions within addiction that may be related to the brain function destruction of the frontal brain or executive function of the brain, supported in the literature.
Impaired control: Dman describes relapsing multiple times, anger and hurting others, a rocky road and drugs being a constant in his life. He states, “Addiction took everything from me. Drugs are not the problem, I am the problem.” Heatherg11 describes the drugs causing physical effects on her body and living with serious health problems.
Dman and Heatherg11 describes loosing family and her daughter. She states “I would find myself looking in their bathroom for pills.” Taxidriver 3 stated, “No matter how long the line was, it was never enough.” All participants describe feeling empty and difficulty controlling their impulses.
Stigma: Ckunkle21 describes the stigma of addiction with his statement, “If I had cancer, people would feel bad for me but because I have this sickness, I am garbage.” Taxidriver3 also makes mention to the stigma of addiction, “Did I become a druggie because I was a disappointment or did I become a disappointment because I was a druggie?” Basil states, “I know that everyone has skeletons in their closet. I keep mine out because I can look at them squarely.
This is my cross to bear.” Dman states, “One of my biggest challenges has been dealing with the shame. My past has some bad stuff in it.” Taxidriver3 states, “If they don’t want me, then it’s because I would not be in a place where I would be happy. I use their prejudice to my benefit.” Shame and stigma are a constant throughout this research. Some are affected by others perceptions of them and seem to live on past events, whereas others (those in recovery longer) use it as a way to evaluate where they came from and plan for the future.
Change dysfunctional thinking: Basil states, “The definition of humility is not to think LESS of yourself, but to think of yourself LESS.” “Keeping things simple leads to an uncomplicated life.” “We can grow to love others by being there and knowing that we are not alone.” “It’s about personal growth.”
Ckunkle21 states, “It is because of my past that I am now who I am. Unlike some of the others, I do not hate my past. I just don’t want to go back.” “I need to learn from our mistakes but can’t focus on the negatives.” Taxidriver3 also states a similar concept in stating, “I use their prejudice to my benefit. We can be honest with who we are and not hide in turmoil of being false.”
These comments indicate the understanding for the need to change and what was, was not healthy. Ckunkle21 also states “Just as water evaporates to the sky and then rains to support the plants. We need others to support and guide us.
We need to ask for help. We must trust that each day will be anew.” “We need to take each day at a time and learn from our past.” Dman states, “Drugs are not the problem, I am the problem.” “I have been lucky enough that another day gave me another chance.
The sunset offers me hope.” Heatherg11, “Each new beginning gives increased confidence even if it is just a ripple.” “The passion is lost and my light is dim, but as the earth rotates and change occurs, brightness returns, changing the tides offering new potentials.” Taxidriver3, “I feel fortunate that I have been offered more chances and was caused many broken promises, but with work and cleansing, these can be washed away and I have the ability to be clean.” There is an understanding or presence of hope and change, that the end is not the end but an opportunity to grow.
Category: change: Change involved three characteristics described throughout the photographs: Emotions, Realizations and Involvement. The following schematic describes change characteristics and are further described with the six photographs. (Figure 9).
Figure 9: Change characteristics.
Words in the sand (others): This photograph represented change, a clean slate or a washing away. Heatherg11 states “Everything changes with each wave, mistakes can be cleansed,” suggesting themes of hope or starting anew.
The actual words “Luv u” in the sand represented hope for and challenges in loving others (Figure 10), (i.e. parent, child, sibling, friend), self, or God, as Taxidriver3 stated “one of the hardest things to do is share life with another person.” CAH stated, “My journey needs to be with God, like the footprints in the sand” referring to the poem Footprints.
Figure 10: Words in the sand.
Dman stated, “I risk watching my love wash away with every wrong step I took.” These comments acknowledged faith and recognizing past mistakes, in addition to love of self and/or another. The words in the sand represented a concept of others.
Roller coaster (emotional, impaired control, transition, chaos): This photograph represented the turmoil in the journey i.e. the ups and downs, pace, keeping on track and a vicious cycle. Ckunkle21 noted, “Life has highs and lows, my life was a ride that I felt with every high there was a fall, I kept drugging to go higher for the fear of falling.” (Figure 11) Dman describes “Life is one big roller coaster, even now still feeling ups and downs.” CAH stated, “When I look at the people on the ride, I see emotional people. Some are scared, some happy, some mad that they caved into the peer pressure to get on the dumb ride. Of all the pictures, this says addiction to me.” These and similar comments of the other participants describe their journey as fearful, up and downs, and the path of addiction. The roller coaster represented concepts of emotionality, impaired control, transition and chaos.
Figure 11: Roller Coaster.
Fortune cookie (past to present, realization): The fortune cookie photograph indicated hope, optimism, change, process and learning from one’s mistakes on their recovery journey. CAH states, “We need to take each day at a time and learn from our past” suggesting reflection and learning.
Taxidriver 3 describes acceptance and moving forward saying, “the fortune cookie talks about failing before you can succeed really hits home to me. I do think I am stronger for it.” Basil adds, (Figure 12) “We can grow to love others by being there and knowing that we are not alone,” also pointed to the journey process as recognizing you are not alone on this journey and require the support of others. It suggests that the past has the opportunity to change with recognition and effort.
Figure 12: Fortune cookie.
Girl on the step (addiction, destructive behavior): Although the researchers looked at this photograph as hopelessness, the majority of the participants described it as shame, including other themes like emptiness, stigma and loneliness which were also depicted in other photographs which did not make the final round, of a trash can and toilet. Basil described this photograph as being “comfortable in your own skin.” Heatherg11 states the photograph was a “reminder to me of how I feel.” (Figure 13) “It hits home to me.”
Figure 13: Girl on the step.
As the only female in the group she states “the girl on the step could be me, a skeleton of what I once was, I lost passion and drive to replace it with the drug.” Body image was a consistent theme in her responses. Most responses correlated the impression of shame or loss, indicating towards the emptiness and destructive behavior of addiction.
This photograph spoke more towards addiction than recovery but acknowledged that recovery was a journey away from behavior
Sunset (change): There were many environmental types of photographs, but the most popular was the sunset. Heatherg11 states “The passion is lost, the light is dim, but new potential is possible.” CAH notes “at night comes darkness, each day I make promises.” Dman notes “I feel lucky enough that another day has given me another chance; the sunset offers me hope.” Heatherg11 states “Each new beginning gives increased confidence even if it is only a ripple.” These quotes indicate a journey, hope and change. Other quotes indicate faith, higher power and acceptance. Basil advises, “By knowing that the world revolves around more then just the addict/alcoholic, it effects the entire family (Figure 14). We can grow into being more then just ourselves.
Figure 14: Sunset.
We have to offer up our powerlessness and embrace the things in life we can control, love and support.” CAH states, “I’m not sure if they find God or if God finds them, but I know that God has something to the journey.” Faith hope, second chances, growing confidence in one’s ability to stay on the recovery journey were all important to all participants in the study. These indicate a moving away from addiction into recovery, that change is possible.
Cemetery (reflection, the end): Themes noted with this photograph include outcomes or finality, the end of the journey. In selecting and discussing this photo, concepts of loss, disappointment, stigma, fear, meaninglessness, unworthiness, and powerlessness were evident.
Surprising to the researchers, this photo was also associated with discussions of gratitude, recognition, change and confronting the risk taking behaviors accompanying drug use.
Ckunkle21 comments, “Others view me as a loss and unworthy, some days are tough, I was throwing everything away, yet I had a fear of dying and life had no meaning.”
Taxidriver3 “wonders why some get a second, third chances and others don’t.” Ckunkle21 states “The cemetery reminds me of where I should be but for some reason I am not.”
Dman states “Death is a possibility.” CAH expresses “I felt anger related to choices I made and outcomes that resulted. I felt like I lost my future and unable to offer value, I am the only person that can make it better.”
Heatherg11 is “thankful the story did not end here.” CAH states, “In order to change, you first have to face your own reality, like the picture of the cemetery.” These suggest reflection and understanding of the potential to continue one one journey (addiction) or another (recovery), but each has finality, one more positive then the other (Figure 15).
Figure 15: Cemetery.
Recovery: Recovery is a process, “a journey” that evokes multiple emotions including fear, loss unworthiness, anger, shame, darkness, stigma, and brutal honesty. It also includes feelings of hope, faith, happiness, appreciation and love of self, others and God.
For participants in this study, it was triggered by experiences of hitting rock-bottom, finding faith, a critical event (e.g. ultimatum) or turning point where the individual recognized the need to change and took steps to begin their journey through commitment to self and/or others.
Some participants spoke of the timeliness of recovery as a long process where one learns about self and then how to “play” or interact at a healthier, more mature way with others. Basil states “Most change starts in the first 5-10 years. That is when we really find out who we are. It takes the first five years to find your marbles then another 5 years to learn how to play with them.” CAH states “I was surviving, not living.
The drugs froze my emotions and I didn’t feel anything... I am scared that I will fall again... I want to make choices to keep love in my life, not chase it away.”The need to reflect was apparent in most statements as a reminder of where they had been, but for at least one participant focusing only on the future was most important on their recovery journey.Overall two themes developed. Recovery is an emotional journey away from dysfunctional thinking, impaired control and destructive behaviors. This journey toward recovery is initiated by self and supported by others to change over time through reflection, realization and reduction of chaos.
Limitations
Limitations of addiction recovery through photovoice in (Table 3).
Photographic data | · Objectifying as specific time & place under specific circumstances |
· May not be ideal for capture essences of what is to be represented | |
· Single direction angle | |
Internet | · Digital images potentially contain more than analog photo |
· Subject to reliability & calculation of size | |
· Viewer dependent on quality and capabilities of the website | |
· Quality of monitor | |
· Generating interactive conversation difficult in artificial setting | |
· Phantom participants occurred secondary to phishing but was limited by the webmaster by requiring participants to change their password followed by a confirmation email that helped discover true participants from phantom participants. | |
Participants | · Remaining on task reminders needed through email |
· Follow through difficult secondary to drug effects on frontal lobe of brain | |
· Trust issues | |
· Disbelief in confidentiality within web-based design | |
· Drug addiction is a very private issue with potential legal repercussions | |
· logging in issues, multiple episodes of forgotten password, and some participants who changed their login name creating multiple accounts | |
Sample size | · Difficulty in the generalizability of the subject matter |
· Trust issues | |
Subjectivity of design method | · Difficulty in the generalizability of the subject matter |
· Other Photovoice study sample sizes ranged from 4-45, with most obtaining data saturation ranging around 15 (Bader, Wanono, Hamden & Skinner, 2007; Chilton, Rabinowich, Council & Breaux, 2009; Grosselink & Myllykangas, 2007; Leven, Scott, Borders, Hart, Lei & Decanini, 2007; Vengris, Glen & Mackenzie, 2008; Wang, Morrell-Samuels, Hutchinson, Bell & Prestronk, 2004; Wilson, Dasko, Martin, Wallerstein, Wang and Minkler, 2007). |
Table 3: Limitations.
Discussion
The results created were the perspectives of recovering addicts talking about their journey and are important to consider in identifying/planning approaches in support of recovery process as the Photovoice method provides voice to marginalized populations like those in addiction. This study supported much of the research related to initiation of treatment, chronic illness, outcomes of the effects of drugs on brain chemistry and the need for a fluid concept of recovery with the understanding that recovery is a chronic disease and relapses that must be cared for similar to other relapsing type of diseases such as diabetes, hypertension and asthma.
Initiation of recovery: Consistent with Weisner, et al, employment, legal, medical and family ultimatums encouraged the initiation of recovery (2010), as well as this study also supported studies where motivation to change were important factors for recovery [7,17,49]. Flynn et al (2003) viewed recovery as a continuous process containing benefits from lessons learned in treatment. This study supports the definition of recovery as an opportunity to begin abstinence, change both dysfunctional thinking and behavior, regain health and in general reduce chaos of substance abuse in their lives [10,17,20].
Initiation into recovery is becoming more difficult as addiction treatment centers are coming under the same scrutiny as hospitals, for example, in being denied payment if a heart failure patient if readmitted to the hospital in less then 30 days. Treatment for drug addiction requires minimal thirty days but funding is being limited to 11-15 days and then funding is not being supported if relapse occurs as drug addiction is not considered a life threatening disease. This makes successful recovery difficult and does not support addiction as a chronic illness.
Chronic illness: This study lends support to research findings that drug addiction is a chronic relapsing illness that impacts all racial, cultural and economic groups, where the addict engages in self destructive and criminal behaviors to get his or her fix [7,9,10,50,51]. In understanding that addiction is a chronic disease, it cannot be cured but must be managed. Treatment for addiction, similar to those chronic, incurable diseases requiring lifestyle changes, works as well, or better than,most other therapies [52].
Effective treatment in a continuum of care includes ongoing, less intensive, and tapered contact with treatment systems, much like other chronic disease [53]. The chronic relapsing nature of substance use disorders often means that individuals may remain in this level of care for many months or years, relapse, return to outpatient treatment, regain abstinence and return to continuing community care [54].
“When managing and treating a long term, chronic illness the patient is often involved in varying levels of care for an extended period of time in order to give them the highest possibility of success, defined as an effective management of symptoms that recur and remit over the course of a person’s lifetime”.
Brain chemistry and impaired control: The study findings identified the challenges and difficulties encountered along the recovery process such as impaired control, stigma, self destructive behaviors and the risk of relapse. The participants also described impaired control overdrug use, compulsive use, continued use despite harm and cravings [3,10,51]. These aspects can be correlated to the dysfunctional brain activity also supported in the literature. The Dopamine release in the brain is a critical mediator towards reinforcing effects of stimuli [3,9-11]. Kalivsas (2004) suggests that dopamine underlines the development of addiction but permeant changes result from sensitization and reinstatement with protein changes regulating glutamate transmission. By further understanding the drug’s effect on the brain to cause dysfunctional thinking processes and behaviors and the utilization of medications on the dopamine effects of the brain, further progress can be made to the continuum of care for the chronic disease of addiction.
Recovery models of care: Today’s treatment has graduated steps designed to meet the differing needs of each patient and each phase of addiction or recovery. The subjects of this study support a continuum of care with descriptions of their process or journey. Treatment intensity can be matched through the continuum by allowing patients to “step-up” or “step-down” based on recovery needs. In viewing recovery as a continuum of care, persons with substance abuse disorders can remain in recovery, with individuals need to be tracked in an ongoing manner.
The American Society of Addiction Medicine has established five main levels for substance abuse continuum of care. These levels include: early intervention services, outpatient services, intensive outpatient/partial hospitalization services, residential/ inpatient services and medically managed [9,53,54].
These levels are further divided into stages: treatment engagement, early recovery, maintenance and community support. Treatment should include a plan of ongoing care but also the transition through one stage to the next. It involves a movement through the continuum back and forth depending on the need of the addict.
The participants in the study discuss their flowing life between sobriety and addiction as well have the description of different levels of recovery. One, Ckunkle, is still early in recovery whereas, Basil is involved in the community support stage. Goals of care include achieving abstinence, fostering behavioral change, facilitating active participation in community support activities, identifying and addressing psychological problems, developing a positive network and improving problem-solving skills and coping strategies.
All of the participants describe these goals using their own language. This method allows complex information to be broken into small increments and modified to the appropriateness to client’s cognitive and psychological functioning and stage of readiness. All participants describe the idea of feeling overwhelmed and taking it in small increments more tolerable.
Conclusions
Recovery from drug addiction was a journey for these participants involving understanding their addictive nature and need to change. Through the methodology of photovoice, they were able to reflect on prior negative and positive times, while describing the ”toughest” journey in life they’ve encountered thus far.
Participants were able to envision a different future and looked forward with both trepidation and hope towards the future. They also described factors that motivated them towards this journey, times when they relapsed, struggled, (i.e. a series of ups and downs), destroyed and re-built relationships, and discovered trust/love in self and others. Clear throughout this journey was the recognition of the need for honesty, change, and ability to accept support for self and from others.
They were able to recognize their emotional journey away from the characteristics of addictive nature and over time. The journey required personal insight and self-support, the support of others, God, faith and or a spiritual nature that assisted in changing their behaviors and thought processes to a healthier future.
Nursing impact: Services offered within a continuum of care model suggests: sponsorship of alumni meeting, providing checkup counseling, periodic contact through telephone contacts and involvement in community resources such as vocational training, recreational therapy, family therapy or medical care [53,55]. Further research is needed as well as social action to encourage the chronic illness aspect of addiction and appropriate length of treatment to decrease relapse potential and increase healthy lifestyles.
Research continues to yield new information on biological predisposition, brain chemistry and behaviors. Treatment will need to continue to change and improve. Treatment providers must create trusting, open and caring relationships with the person struggling with substance use disorder.
Further research is recommended for both photovoice as a research methodology in order to identify triggers that might potentiate relapse and more importantly how to prevent relapse and maintain sobriety. Based on such research newer interventions based on such evidence can be implemented to assist clients in maintaining sobriety.
The use of Photovoice and technology can contribute to the care of individuals in the recovery process. Photovoice can help the individual on pattern recognition and problem avoidance, by asking the individual to record what (s)he perceives as important in his or her personal recovery process.
Although Photovoice was used as a methodology in this study, it was found to express many emotions, growth and healing and create a supportive network and should be considered for an interventional study or a potential supportive recovery intervention for this type of population.
In addition, due to the creativity of photovoice, future studies should consider incorporating the Creative Arts Therapies, as art therapy has been a long standing intervention in addiction, the component of photovoice can be future impacted with their understanding of spacial design and unconscious impact of the art.
Although there were issues secondary to follow through within the online format that required frequent contacts to remain on task, the opportunity of utilizing social media and telemedicine can create increased access of care within a safe security encrypted server cyberspace environment for communication and openness. Individuals with addiction experienced shame and have concerns around trust, memory and following-up on appointments.
Telemedicine can provide a venue for reaching individuals with addiction. Future research can include computer technology to increase access and awareness to the needs of recovering addicts and the ability to connect with others to envision future change allowing for reflection and observation.